I hate myself. Haiz. I'm like crying now. I didnt asked for much i just asked for 25 bucks! I got scolded for the whole day. In my parents eyes i'm just a useless fuck. I really hate it when such things heppen in me. Other teenagers like me got the freedom to do what they want to. ME? My parents still thinks that i'm a small kid! Sometimes i just feel like leaving my home and never come back. But i cant even support myself. I cant even get a job now. I feel like quiting school. I find myself with no future. Let me die. Someone! PLEASE KILL ME! I hate to be here. FUCKED UP LIFE!!!! ARRRRHRHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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I'm really depress. I want to tell the person i love "I love you".
I want to tell my parents "I'm Sorry".
Lastly Matthew is dead! Dont ever ask me out! Not even to church!
FUCK OFF!

It's fucking 5.43AM! Alright today went to pasir ris to play soccer with Jun Jie Ronald Jenson all. But before that, went to hougang point to pay shaun's ITE school fees. Than he fetched me down. After soccer went to meet Shaun's friend. Than went to shaun's house he bathed all. Than went to AVE 8 to meet mark for dinner. After that he went off to meet his friends than i stayed with mark talked than went to find shaun. Then! went to meet JELINE! I MISS HER MAN! Damn long never see her. Haha. Fetch jeline. Than went to woodbridge to drive one round. Went to meet tony at his house there. Than met Clarice one of my long lost friend. But didnt talk to her though. We left after a drink. Sent jeline home. Than my turn to go home. Came home watched tv called brandon. Than conferenced with shaun and jeline for awhile. Than they wanted to sleep so we hung up. Than was watching tv till now la. I'm damn bored! I'm lying on my bed now. Hmm. It's good to have a labtop. I can lie there and blog! hahaha!Alright gonna sleep soon. I cant think now haha!




Oh My... I'm so tired and STRESS! =)

Alright. My internet was down for a few days for no fucking reason. Damn bored that few days la. Went to my family's chalet last night. It was really fucking bored till i took over the bbq pit. haha! My chicken wings best la. HAHA! Than suddenly rained! fuck sia. I was having fun. Than As usual la. My sis just can't grow up. Irritates me la. Oh. It was my cousin's 21 birthday. Haha. Shiok la. Free already haha. Got to work to pay my fucking fine sia. So sick of working la. Damn bored one. Nvm! got money but not for myself to spend also. 700 bucks for the fine. 100 bucks to pay my phone's bill.

My parents just dont understands how i feel la. They will only think that i'm just and idiot that always spend thier money i swear uh if i got a stable job now uh. I'll not take a single cents from them. I really cant take it anymore. Come on, i'm happier with friends then family. I would rather stay out than home. So what if i got what i want. But i dont get the love from my family. I just hate my life.! Fuck OFF!

I've been staying home since the day i've got caught. I've been thinking. What if i really go in and sit for smoking. Than it will be fucking stupid la. I'll start to hate everything on earth la. Haiz. I'm freaking bored!!!! I hate myself. Anyway. No one loves me. Fuck it. Haiz. FUCK LA!!!! Of all things to happen. 4th time of hsa. Fuck off. I hate the world balls. Everything is so realistic. My parents my family. Because of money we can hate each other everyday shouting here and there is this a fucking family or we're all enemies? I would rather stay out than coming home. What is this. I got everything i want but. My family is screwed up, what for? Haiz. They dont care how i feel. After i got caught. They only know how to hate me and scold me. Never understand me. Why are they like this. If they dont want me as a son. Fucking tell me la. I'll leave i swear. Fuck it la. Fuck my life! Fucked up life.




No One Loves Me!?!?!?!

Haiz! Yesterday i just got caught by the HSA for the 4th time. The feelings is fucking fucked up. Why on earth must there be HSA in the first place its such a fucked up department. Just fuck off from me. There are many thing i have yet to do. Must it just end me just like this. What if i do not have the money to pay the fine? RTC? Come on it's only underaged smoking. You want me to go there just beacause of smoking? It's fucking ridiculous. Fucking $300. Fuck off la.

Today i stayed home the whole day. Didn't go out. So got nth to write i was sleeping through out the day. Bye! I Hate Singapore! I want to MIGRATE! I want to me in Aussie!

Went sch as uaual late! HAHA! I'm worried about my attendance sia. I scared kenna debar. haha! Than had lesson. Mr lee is a bastard! Asked if who wanna go out of class. Immediately look at me and gary. BASKET! Than aiya his lesson was damn bored. So go out lo. Than go play Snooker. haha! Met the aprilia guy. Played with his bike. But never ride la. haha! Wanted to ride but he dont let eh. HAHA. Than went back to class with Felicia. Gary and Kah Chuan went home. Than listened to Mr Koh understand already but uh. He uh. Anyhow give the code now i don't know where to put the code! hahaha! Basket. Than after class went to eat with Choon Hong all la. Than took 31 with Bing Xun, Chee Hoe and Sian Aik. Than took 72 with Sian Aik. I alighted first. Than came home charged my laptop. Than bathed. Chatted online with Selina. Than chatted with Sian Aik as well. Shit la tomorrow. Must hand in PIE project till now i stil haven't do sia! HAHAHA! Cannot fail eh. Stay back 6 months. I think i'm gonna do now. HAHA! SO I shall stop here.



FUCK OFF BIG MOUTH BITCH!
You can't even compare yourself to the one i really LOVE! SO FUCK OFF!

Went school today quite late. Chatted with Jemie and Jenson online. Than went sch was abit late though. Than went to pass Raphael something. Than went back to class. Than here comes break! Anyway was using my laptop in class. Haha. Gary gopped alot of things from me eh. Basket!!! HAHA! =) Than Break went to Burger Buster to eat. Fucking hungry. Than went to class late la as usual la. Than was trying to do the work la. But too bad la didn't listen in class. Dont know how to do. So went to friendster to see girls! HAHA! Than time to go home!!! Came home than met Mark Tony Emu and Marcus. Than went to Pasar Malam is it spelt this way?? HAHA. Than went to slack around. Fuck sia my cigg opened for a few hours now left 6 sticks. HAHA! Mark took five. Why cant have 50 sticks pack uh?? HAHA! Than came home at around 10pm. Than came home slacked Shitted! Than now blogging la. HAHA!



Oh no! What's wrong with me?? =)

Alright. Today went to school fucking late i was late for the first lesson. I didnt go. So i went to PE straight. Than played soccer. After that went to eat my lunch. Than went to slack around. Than the EES Practical started. So went to class. Was sick of Mr Lee's voice feel like killing him sia! haha But cannot la. Against the law sia! FUCK! HAHA. Messaged Charmaine today. But half way she never reply. Than was like listening to mp3 blast it in my ear. Than can't hear him at all sia! Shiok. Than talked to Felicia and Gary. After awhile BREAK! Happy sia. Than went to Billiards Centre with Gary and Felicia. Oh and Chee Hoe. Than Gary continued playing while Chee Hoe, Felicia and I, went back to class to put our bags. Than went down to meet Felicia's boyfriend. Than went to meet Gary at billiards centre. Than shoot arrow. Than followed them go eat all la. Than shoot arrows again. Than i went back to class. Saw that idiot. Mr Lee. Than he come talked to me all asked me where was i. haha! Fuck it la. Than after school went to ear with Jun Jie all. Than went home after that. Than, reached home. Slacked turned on the laptop went to bathed i was damn stink when i reached home. Than watching JackAss 2! Fucking awesome show haha! Must Watch! Than now blogging la. HAHA! Lying on my BED! Tired la! =))

Went to church early in the morning. Ate breakfast. Than had meeting with servers. Than played carom. Than went to meet Marcus. At lunch with him. Than played snooker. Than Mark came with Keith and Emu. Than went to gas haus. Than the gig started. Kevin all went sia! Shiok. Damn long never see them. The gig ended. Than walked to bugis side. Than saw Daryl Low. Than walked to take 147. Than went to Upp Serangoon. Ate dinner. Than slacked for awhile. Than went home FUCKING TIRED! Than bathed. Than now blogging la.



Haiz. Sad i might not make it to Arrant End's gig on the 24th! Fuck i'm on guest list! I have to find my ways!!!

Today! Went to sch. Ended school at around 1plus. Than went back montfort to meet emu all. Than went to Keith's house. Than went to Outram they were jamming i was stoning. HAHA! Than after that went steamboat with Mark, Justin, Tony, Marcus and Keith. Eat Eat Eat and Eat! hahaha! Than went to the arcade to play haha! After that, came back hougang met Melanie Ben Nat Narissa all la. Than Melanie pierced her tongue. Haha. Damn funny la. Akira can make noise about the saliva all. Than went to slacked near 684 that 7 eleven. Than went home at 1.45am. Reached home watch tv all. Now Blogging la. hahah!



SIAN!

Alright. i'm gonna start blogging again. Changed skin! Plain but i like haha! Alright... Today went school. As usual. Monday! Always Late! Had PE today did all the five items. Did 40 sit ups, Standing Board Jump 135, Sit & Reach 39, shuttle run 10.6secs and chin up 0! haha. But ended up uh. My left leg the shin part that muscles is in pain! Basket! Too long never excercise. HAHA! Than went for lunch. Went back for EES! Seriously uh. I cant stand that MR LEE! He's an ASS! I can stand him for a second at all. Fucking irritating. Than after class went home already. Too tired la. haha! But serious my leg was really damn pain. Can't walk properly. HAHA! Told me to produce MC i dont have so much money to see doc la. Fuck Off. haha! Came home SLEEP! Woke up at around 8pm.

Ate dinner. Than watch TV all. Fucking bored.


Without her life isn't complete afterall.