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The One and Only
Matthew Marcellinus Chua
10SEP1990 MALE/SINGLE SCDF =))
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NUFFNANG
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Hokay... I cannot take it anymore...
i'm so empty without her presence.... No laughter... No sense of life... How la...!!!! Anyway, i've been working and working and working... TODAY FINALLY GOT OFF!!! My mind only got her her her.... But i think in her mind will be like other people other people other people... To her maybe i'm just an ugly fat fuck la... I DONTKNOW LA!!!! SIAN!!! i'm lost i'm confused i dont know what to do!!! FUCK!!!
Fuck sia!!!!
Go club dance with girls half way... I hold back... What the fuck is wrong with me sia... Everytime i'm with other girls i think of you... I go club i think of you.. I'm going crazy sia!!! Thinking of someone who dont even like me... SIGH!!! WAKE UP MATT!!! WAKE UP!!! Anyway, went to MOS with Rashik, Chris, Polin, Hardri, Din, Hardri's friend, Fadzly and me!!! Also went to ARENA with Rashik, Chris and Polin... Kinda dont like clubbing anymore seh.. Prefer going to pubs drink chill... It's time to have a serious relationship rather then having lots of flings... Thats all.. Bye blog!!!
Today...
Work!!! Tired seh... Knee still pain.. Dont know why also... Sian!!! Miracle... She called me... Asked me to buy cookies for her... But of course i gave it to her instead of asking her to pay right?? But i really just took is sia... Never buy... So broke already... No cash... How to buy da??? Was happy yet sad... Was down after seeing her with some ah bengs.... I'M FEELING JEALOUS!!! SIGH!!! She told me that she's having stomachache... She was down... By judging all the smses that i sent her and the way she replied... Either she HAVE a boyfriend already OR something major did happened to her... But today when i met her, she was able to LAUGH!!! I felt so cheated... So much of worrying about her... PLEASE!!! I BEG HER!!! TELL ME SOMETHING!!! At least i know what's happening... If she's really seeing someone, i wont bother her anymore... But why is she not replying me??? Why am i feeling jealous, worried and sad??? WHY??? SOMEONE TELL ME LA!!! I was actually contemplating if i should go club on wed.. Because i thought of her... I promised myself... If i really fall in love with someone i'll never go club anymore... Am i really in love with her?? OH GOD!!!! PLEASE!!! give me an ANSWER! I dont want to live in such a bothered life!!! I guess i'll just get myself wasted tmr then... No one cares for me as well... Let IT be...
SIGH!!!
It have been days that i haven't met her... I'm worried... I'm really worried... Why is she telling everybody about what had happened but she's not tell me?? Am i like what they say in chinese Zi Zuo Duo Qing??? Why am i so worried about her??? Why is it so?? But does she even bother about this?? Does she knows that i'm seriously worried about her... Why must things turn out to be like this??? I'm Sad... I'm Worried... I'm Lost... I'm going crazy soon man... Please girl.... Dont just leave things like this... Tell me something.... At least let me know that you're really fine... =((
SIGH!!!!
What the hell am i thinking sia???? People don't even care about me why must i even bother to talk to people??? WAKE UP MATTHEW!!! IT WILL NEVER HAPPEN LA!!! Today, suppose to go school... THEN sleep cannot wake up already hahaha... Drink too much uh last night. Finally 18 years old sia!!! FUCK!!! NO MONEY TO ENROL!!! Met shahrul and mamat at mac just now... Fuck prepaid no money... SIAN!!! After birthday only no money power la matt... Well DONE!! =)) Forget about her Matthew!!!
MY 18th BIRTHDAY!!!! =)))
Finally, can enrol anytime. Anyway kenna sabo at mac... So was damn sticky all sit down for awhile then ciao... THANKS GUYS!!! At least you guys still remember my birthday. I shall stop featuring girls in friendster anymore la... Unless my girlfriend... Dont ask why... Cos it's not wise to do so... Qing and Sihui birthday same day sia!! hahaha. cool ke pe?? I'm in love yet i CANNOT give myself to it cos it's like IT CANNOT HAPPEN. what the hell am i thinking man... Take time to realize, That your warmth is Crashing down on in. Take time to realize, That I am on your side Didn't I, Didn't I tell you. But I can't spell it out for you, No it's never gonna be that simple No I cant spell it out for you If you just realize what I just realized, Then we'd be perfect for each other and will never find another Just realized what I just realized we'd never have to wonder if we missed out on each other now. Take time to realize Oh-oh I'm on your sidedidn't I, didn't I tell you. Take time to realize This all can pass you by Didn't I tell you But I can't spell it out for you, no it's never gonna be that simple no I can't spell it out for you. If you just realized what I just realized then we'd be perfect for each other then we'd never find another Just realized what I just realized we'd never have to wonder if we missed out on each other now. It's not always the same no it's never the same if you don't feel it too. If you meet me half way If you would meet me half way. It could be the same for you. If you just realize what I just realized then we'd be perfect for each other then we'd never find another Just realize what I just realized we'd never have to wonder Just realize what I just realized If you just realize what I just realized OoOoOOo missed out on each other now missed out on each other now Realize, realizerealize, realize  Just Come Out From Hospital...
 My HAND!!!
Hokay... Last wednesday... ACCIDENT AGAIN.... HAHAHA Mother fucking car!!! Never bring brain out to drive one... Had a long weekend... Enjoying my life... Nothing much happened though.. My mum is okay already... Thank god man... Tuesday go back to school again cb!!! Fucked up... Hate school siall.... Sadly, i'm in love with her... The sad thing is that i dont know why will i be in love with her... Does she feels the same?? Weird feeling... SIGH!!! When la will i have my bike licence... Cannot tahan sia... But i dont care what ppl think la as long as i have my good friends around me can already... Want to action.. ACTION LA!!! KR will never lose... =)) __ |
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