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The One and Only
Matthew Marcellinus Chua
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OKAY!!! I spent my whole day home sleeping!! Best uh!! hahaha! Wednesday!! FTT.. I'm fucking scared now.. How la.. Scary siol... Then 11th April RTT.. Even more scary... Have been home for the past 2 days... Learnt how to play Hey Monday songs. HAHAHAHA!!! Candles is a very nice song.. =)) Gotta go out and have some fun man.. Go drink or something i'm like crazily bored at home.. Nothing to do at all siol.. Just sleep. She's always here for awhile and there she go off again.. I'll never be able to tell her how i feel.. Sigh.............. I guess she knows but she's just ignoring it.. Then i'll be the one that will be having all the hearaches.. hmmm.. what to do.. i've got no looks.. I'm FAT, BALD and JOBLESS..
Hmmmmmm... Life's been bad... Money go out but never come in... Gonna suffer soon..
BUT!! I PASSED MY PRACT 5~~~ HAHAH damn happy.. Now wait for RTT.. Ke sian uh... Nothing to do now... waste time only... tonight go down madinathul... Dont know should bring helmet or not... Later no one tongpang LL walk carry helmet.. haha. Like fuck. FUCK LA... Hokay.. Counting down to my FTT and RTT.. HAHAHA! Oh god RTT please uh please.. please please.. please... One time pass uh.. If not i have to wait for another month.. haha. Last night woke up around 11.. Then went to meet Farleeq and all. Then went to lepak at park villa then went to eat laksa.. HAHA! Drank abit.. Then lepak till the sun come out then went back to Farleeq's house.. Then lepak with Farhan till just now noon 1pm. Came home bathe.. Now got stomachache all. Diarrhea siol!!! Stomach damn numb siol!!! Estella... Estella...... Also got diarheoa.. But never listens.. Still want to go to work... Aiyoooo.... Dont know what to say... Sad seh.. Then.... Had a long talk with Farhan.. HAHA! Random.. But well i got to find out that i'm all along reminiscing the times when someone is around... It have been a long long time since i have this feeling already.. Well i've been single for like close to 4 years. Didn't had any special feelings for any girls man.. Till that day came. I never expect her to take care of me when something happened to me. Till today... i still dont know whats the reason that made her actually waited for me and walked me home and took care of me.. I really do want to know why.. I'm not scared of rejection.. It's just that i'm scared that its one sided.. How laaaaA?? God will you tell me what to do?? SIGH!!! I still can't fall asleep.. damn bored dont know what to do man!! Why am i so concern on her calling me desperate?? Why uh?? Feeling damn weird.. I'm like NOT!!! Okay, i might be a low life bastard.. But i'm not desperate man.. To all the high class motherfuckers out there.. I hate you!! Damn bastard son of a gun.. (This only applies to ppl who thinks they are damn freaking rich and they can do whatever fuck they one uh..) Okay i'm freaking going crazy over here man.. Jobless.. Fat bastard am i.. Lazing around... Fucking no life... I'm so dead man.. I'm so dead.. I need a life man.. All my friends from secondary school.. My used to be clique.. I miss you guys man... I need all the fun we had man.. All stupid things that we does and all the drinkings... I miss those good old days man.. I hate my life now man to the fact that i'm like no control of anything.. What the FUCK happened to the used to be MATTHEW.. Imagine how fucked up am i now.. All my friends from secondary school just disappear one after another.. Even my closes one.. Fuck la.. Seriously.. Fuck!!!!! Soon i'll go crazy man!! I so need to go for some gigs man.. Go into the mosh pit and vent all the anger out!!! I HATE MY LIFE!!!...  This is what nothing to do can lead to... =)) HAHAHA! Memories Given by the road... =))
I've been thinking about my life lately...
Life's been a bitch man... Regretted my past. Now that i'm 19 this year and i've got nothing to my name.. Oh god.. I'm like freaking squeezed dry by the so called "RECESSION". I'm freaking broke.. I've been applying for many jobs.. NONE of it called back.. I'm like totally irritated!! I've sent like more then 20 resumes and applied like more then 20 jobs online man!! NO REPLIES!! How do i live in Singapore like that?? I can't pursue my dream.. My dream is to like get hold of my licence and buy a bike. How am i suppose to fulfill it now?? Everything seems like screwed up! Fucked up.. I dont know what else to say.. IF.. Killing myself dont feel any pain.. I'll do it man... I just hope that i'll finish up NS and save up money and just MIGRATE!! Get a PR at canada.. Bring my whole family over.. Study there and get a job there.. Every second of me being in Singapore i feel fucking stressed up for this and that. Sigh... Hate my life man.. Why am i borned like that?? Why la?? BIKE insurance 19 years old, with probational plate.. For KR.. 1800 fucking bucks... Crazy.. Third Party without any coverage.. What The Fuck?? I've been jobless like for so fucking long sia.. I can't just depend on my mum know... FUCK LA!!! I'm like damn irritated with all this shit sia... I feel like a useless bloody bastard!!! Now.. Everywhere qualification.. Why can't they just think that what if people who doesn't have a high qualifications can't get a job?? Why must they only favour towards people with degree and stuffs its like not fair la.. Now even simple job need O lvls.. Anyway.. have been doing the same thing i've been doing everyday... Sleep at this hour.. Wake up at around 8pm.. Farleeq's house.. The "i'm fat, bald and jobless" lifestyle.. FUCKED UP LIFE I HAVE!!
hmmmm... i'm still fat, bald and jobless.. HAHA!
Everyday the same cycles comes. hahaa! Failed my pract 5.. Sian siol!! Money must come out again.. Hope RTT one time pass sia.. If not sian.. Rabak.. hmmmm... ESTELLA ATE DOUBLE CHEESE BURGER!!! hahaha i'm bored la... just really really bored.. kk nothing much to write.. OH! My debit card is HERE!!! =)) But i've got no money to spend.. Alright gonna meet farleeq soon. Bye blog! Pray for me kay.. Pass all my practicals and theories and get a job.. =)) I'm Fat, Bald and Jobless.. hahahaha! Havent been doing much... Was at Farleeq's place almost everyday.. Lepak... Do nothing.. Go meet girls... HAHA! Stucked in the four walls everyday... Come home in the morning sleep then back there again.. This is what you call "very free people.." or "jobless people.." Nothing much to type also.. Pract 5 wed.. WHOOOO!!! If pass... I'll stuck with RTT.. hmmm... Hopefully by may can get my Class 2b!!! =)) YES AH!!! PRACT 5!!!!! =)) Finally i dropped a bike at CDC!!! HAHAHA! Yesterday was at HQ. Then came home this morning at 6. Slept till around 2pm. Then woke up. Washed up. Got ready. Finished all my ciggs! haha. Then went off to CDC for my pract. Everything went quite well. Narrow plank still not very stable the first few times. Then slowly slowly.. I managed to sat on the plank for 12.9 secs. Requirement is more the 6 secs only. I'm very proud of that! HAHA! =)) Pylon Slalom 5.67 secs. E brake is fucking scary today i dont know why. The water look damn scary. hahaha! Then!!!! After the pract, the last course that i went was E Brake so my shoes was wet. Then went to park the bike. So i have to put the main stand up. So i thought it was up already i let off my hands. Then the main stand slipped off my sole. The bike dropped HAHAHA! My dear MACBETH is dirty now!!! Fuck! My favourite shoe sia! Then at that point of time i was like shit i'm gonna fail my pract 4 and come back again. So i met kleon. He failed his TP 60 points!!! HAHAHA! Kleon.. Ohhh Kleon.. Then i was waiting to get my record book back.. I was surprised that i passed sia!! WHOO!!! Cheers to the instructor!! =))  My Most Recent Shopping.. =))Today.. Met Marcus, then went to Macpherson for an interview for clubmarc. Then went to Ah Boy to buy the helmet. Then after that went to suntec. Had lunch then went looking for Springfield. Applied for job there. Then walked around suntec.. HAHA! See everything but cannot buy. Sian sia.. After suntec we went to marina. Then walked around windows shopping. After that marina got bored. So went to Cine. Thought Sasha will be there. But she wasn't there then went to i shop. Walked around... Then went to subway to buy cookies. HAHA! Left town at around 8 plus. Came home. Put my stuffs. Went to meet Shahrul, Farleeq, Predip, Yan and Akmal. Then Mamat came. Lepak lepak then went over to meet apai all. Lepak for awhile came home. Tmr got pract. Hehe! PRACT 4!!! WHOOOOO!!! =)) Alright i'm gonna stop here. =))  EHem... Ehemmm.. MAYHEM!!! STEAMBOAT!!! Mayhem! 2 Guys 1 Bowl... Dinner TIME!!!Hokayyyy... 6 March 2009... Mayhem went MOUNT FABER!!! Had Steamboat.. Celebrating 4th month annivesary and farewell party for Shahrul... Going to NS on the 10th March... Before meeting the guys... I met Nen earlier then went to Far East shopping.. I bought a Elements cap.. =)) Its original!!! haha. Then got nothing to do already... Nen and i went to cine.. Played Nintedo Wii.. HAHAHA! Fucking fun.. Funny!! Then around evening went down to habourfront to meet the rest.. Took a cab up to mount faber.. Then the dinner starts... Makan, makan and makan.. HEHE. Then finished eating had a small gathering have a few talks and we left for Sheesha at arab street. Then went home... So the day ended.. A very long day for me i was like whoa came home and flat.. Yesterday.. Ronald called me to go drink with them as he's going to NS.. Wah stress siol spent abit of money.. hahaha! Cos i'm broke again.. Cleared all my debts and put money in CDC account. Now only left just nice for buying a new helmet and sending spray.. hahaha! SoooooOOOoooo... Today... Stayed home the whole entire day... Did nothing but sleeping... Woke up used the comp... Till now still using the comp.. I'm looking for Pet Society cheats... Anyone knows of please tell me.. Thanks!!! Randomly.. Suddenly.. I just miss the time when i got into that accident.. The times when she took care of me.. The time where by she waited for me till 6am at mac.. sigh... I know it can never be a possible between us but.. I dont know what to say man... I didnt get my posting to any poly.. So i shall clear my practs fast and go to the ARMY!!! =)) / =((
Hokayyy.... Woke up damn early today.. Good boy seh.. Stayed home the whole day...
Tonight meet they guys and lepak... Cannot wait sia... Damn bored at home... Nen accident last night rabak seh... Taxis driver are really some ass man... Dont know where they pass thier licence sia... hahaha! Alright man nothing much to write la past few days have been at farleeq's place... BUAI!!! |