I've been lazy to blog till recently..

Many people around me have problems.. I can talk to them.. Wake them up.. But who's gonna talk to me??

I just don't understand why am i doing all this things. All this things of my love life. She'll NEVER leave him. I can say whatever i want. I can feel whatever i want. I can't say it doesn't bother me at all. BUT IT DOES. It hurts. It really does. Oh god, it's like i know whats gonna happen in the end. Yet, i'm putting myself into this. Why is it so? Now i don't even understand myself. It's already a precise answer to everything. No good will come to an end. Is this really love? Please lord, guide me through.

Tell me what to do. She told me that she felt that isn't fair for me. To me, nothing is fair. It's just that i think i really love her. Just that things will never happen. Many times i want to tell her we should just remain as friends. But i don't have the heart to say this. I don't want anything change in this. But this will never happen. There MUST be an answer at the end of the day. Which is we'll be going on our seperate paths. No one can stop that. As this is the fact.

I might appear strong in me. But i'm just as weak as any other human beings hence i do have feelings. I just feel that she's so far away and yet so near. I'm all confused. I'm all confused. Nothing is perfect. Nothing is fair. But to me, there are answers to all this. Why is that so.. Why is it not perfect and not fair. There must be something that made it this way. The most happy day so far for this year is still the 14th February. Everything was so fine.

This is already the past to me. I've made up my mind of being all by myself for now. I give up on this. I don't want to go any further. I just want her to know, everything i did, i did it for her. It all came out from my heart. Whatever i've said, it's all true. It's nothing like sweet talking. Good bye my love.