HOKAY!!! I STAYED HOME THE WHOLE FREAKING DAY!!! I was bored till i didn't know what to do.. So i cooked my own lunch and dinner...!!!

I SWEAR!!! I miss her like hell.. I just can never forget about it.. I thought i could but it's fucking hard.. The more things gets harder between us.. The more i'm in love with her.. Oh god..I'm seriously falling for her.. How?? I CANNOT.. I can't put myself in so much.. I'll be the one to be hurt in the end.. I know what's gonna come to an end already... It's like i want all this to end.. But it's so HARD to let go!!!!!! How? God, tell me how.. please...

It's like to me now i really need to find things to distract me from thinking about her.. Like getting a actual girlfriend or so.. Or date someone else.. Either that or i just work like hell... That's all i can think lord.. I can tell everyone what to do.. Why is so that i can't talk myself into doing??? WHY!?

Haiyo.. It's harder then what i expect.. When i know that they were out together.. My heart hurts.. It hurts like hell.. HEARTPAIN!!!!!

that's all.. =((